Sunday, January 31, 2010
The joys of a new puppy, even if she is a foster pup.
Well, a puppy found me last night on my paper route. Dream breed, no less. However, it is another case of be careful what you ask for. Too bad I asked for this type of puppy years and years ago. I am hoping to find her family and return her to them. Checking the classifieds for lost puppies, leaving my business card (that sounds so weird!) at the Humane Society, taking her up to the vet to be checked for a microchip, etc. It's sad though, as much as Brandan is having problems with the house training accidents, he really likes her. I can see that he needs a companion up in the bedroom. He is being extremely patient with her. Which actually amazes me and makes me very happy. I am sad that there really is no realistic way we can keep her though. It is going to be hard to let her go and painful. Maybe we will keep her, I would like to. But we cannot afford the animals we already have. I cannot afford the animals I already have. It is in God's hands. He knows what is best for everyone, including the puppy.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
I am so blessed!
No Mo’ Dry Bones
I have been crying out to Jesus, begging Him to tell me what the next step is. Dying inside because I am stuck in this rut. Not knowing why I am unable to find a job that will pay the bills, always worried about when the foreclosure is going to happen (because I cannot see any way of saving the house with my income), worrying about how to keep from losing the car as well. Agonizing over whether or not to take my furry babies to the pound because I cannot afford to get the three boys neutered, or get their shots (not even at the feed store price). I have been quietly asking the few people I know if they would like to adopt them, but so far no takers. I just cannot believe that this is what the Lord wishes for my life, yet I fully admit that I also have no clue, which is why I keep pestering Him to give me just ONE…
Needless to say, I kept hearing wait, to learn how to rest, to trust again, to accept, not struggle, and of course I still haven’t learned how to let go. I doubt I have gotten any closer to learning the art of any of these…
Then I changed my heart’s cry to Lord please just give me something to hold onto in the darkness that is my life right now. I know that YOU have great plans for me, I know that you care for me, just as You care for the smallest sparrow. I have seen Your wondrous miracles over and over again. So Please Father, as my Daddy, I am begging you for something to hold onto in this darkness. It’s all too much. I cannot find it within me to “try,” to “fight,” anymore. I just cannot continue feeling this way anymore. I am finished struggling Papa, I will continue to do the jobs you have blessed me with. I will continue to work very hard at managing my money wisely… the most difficult part of this is deciding who I am not going to pay… I will continue as I am, but I need something to hold close to my heart as it is shattering into pieces… please Papa, please… Then I began to work on my homework, for the last class…the final paper…finding Bible passages that show that God has commanded us to total Health and Wellness…That is when I found the following passage and the overwhelming, chest crushing darkness lifted, peace settled into my heart and mind. Papa gave me the security blanket I so desperately need. My scripture for the upcoming year…and once again my heart quickens with excitement. My breath catches as I look towards the horizon of my future… What a glorious sunrise I am finally able to see peeping above the dark mountains surrounding me in this valley…Thank You Lord, with all my heart, all my soul, all my strength, and all my mind—I thank You—Your mercies ARE new every morning…
Ezekiel 37:1-14
(Contemporary English Version)
Dry Bones Live Again
1Some time later, I felt the LORD's power take control of me, and his Spirit carried me to a valley full of bones.2The LORD showed me all around, and everywhere I looked I saw bones that were dried out. 3He said, "Ezekiel, son of man, can these bones come back to life?"
I replied, "LORD God, only you can answer that."
4He then told me to say:
Dry bones, listen to what the LORD is saying to you, 5"I, the LORD God, will put breath in you, and once again you will live. 6I will wrap you with muscles and skin and breathe life into you. Then you will know that I am the LORD."
7I did what the LORD said, but before I finished speaking, I heard a rattling noise. The bones were coming together! 8I saw muscles and skin cover the bones, but they had no life in them.
9The LORD said:
Ezekiel, now say to the wind, [a] "The LORD God commands you to blow from every direction and to breathe life into these dead bodies, so they can live again." 10As soon as I said this, the wind blew among the bodies, and they came back to life! They all stood up, and there were enough to make a large army.
11The LORD said:
Ezekiel, the people of Israel are like dead bones. They complain that they are dried up and that they have no hope for the future. 12So tell them, "I, the LORD God, promise to open your graves and set you free. I will bring you back to Israel, 13and when that happens, you will realize that I am the LORD. 14My Spirit will give you breath, and you will live again. I will bring you home, and you will know that I have kept my promise. I, the LORD, have spoken."
I have been crying out to Jesus, begging Him to tell me what the next step is. Dying inside because I am stuck in this rut. Not knowing why I am unable to find a job that will pay the bills, always worried about when the foreclosure is going to happen (because I cannot see any way of saving the house with my income), worrying about how to keep from losing the car as well. Agonizing over whether or not to take my furry babies to the pound because I cannot afford to get the three boys neutered, or get their shots (not even at the feed store price). I have been quietly asking the few people I know if they would like to adopt them, but so far no takers. I just cannot believe that this is what the Lord wishes for my life, yet I fully admit that I also have no clue, which is why I keep pestering Him to give me just ONE…
Needless to say, I kept hearing wait, to learn how to rest, to trust again, to accept, not struggle, and of course I still haven’t learned how to let go. I doubt I have gotten any closer to learning the art of any of these…
Then I changed my heart’s cry to Lord please just give me something to hold onto in the darkness that is my life right now. I know that YOU have great plans for me, I know that you care for me, just as You care for the smallest sparrow. I have seen Your wondrous miracles over and over again. So Please Father, as my Daddy, I am begging you for something to hold onto in this darkness. It’s all too much. I cannot find it within me to “try,” to “fight,” anymore. I just cannot continue feeling this way anymore. I am finished struggling Papa, I will continue to do the jobs you have blessed me with. I will continue to work very hard at managing my money wisely… the most difficult part of this is deciding who I am not going to pay… I will continue as I am, but I need something to hold close to my heart as it is shattering into pieces… please Papa, please… Then I began to work on my homework, for the last class…the final paper…finding Bible passages that show that God has commanded us to total Health and Wellness…That is when I found the following passage and the overwhelming, chest crushing darkness lifted, peace settled into my heart and mind. Papa gave me the security blanket I so desperately need. My scripture for the upcoming year…and once again my heart quickens with excitement. My breath catches as I look towards the horizon of my future… What a glorious sunrise I am finally able to see peeping above the dark mountains surrounding me in this valley…Thank You Lord, with all my heart, all my soul, all my strength, and all my mind—I thank You—Your mercies ARE new every morning…
Ezekiel 37:1-14
(Contemporary English Version)
Dry Bones Live Again
1Some time later, I felt the LORD's power take control of me, and his Spirit carried me to a valley full of bones.2The LORD showed me all around, and everywhere I looked I saw bones that were dried out. 3He said, "Ezekiel, son of man, can these bones come back to life?"
I replied, "LORD God, only you can answer that."
4He then told me to say:
Dry bones, listen to what the LORD is saying to you, 5"I, the LORD God, will put breath in you, and once again you will live. 6I will wrap you with muscles and skin and breathe life into you. Then you will know that I am the LORD."
7I did what the LORD said, but before I finished speaking, I heard a rattling noise. The bones were coming together! 8I saw muscles and skin cover the bones, but they had no life in them.
9The LORD said:
Ezekiel, now say to the wind, [a] "The LORD God commands you to blow from every direction and to breathe life into these dead bodies, so they can live again." 10As soon as I said this, the wind blew among the bodies, and they came back to life! They all stood up, and there were enough to make a large army.
11The LORD said:
Ezekiel, the people of Israel are like dead bones. They complain that they are dried up and that they have no hope for the future. 12So tell them, "I, the LORD God, promise to open your graves and set you free. I will bring you back to Israel, 13and when that happens, you will realize that I am the LORD. 14My Spirit will give you breath, and you will live again. I will bring you home, and you will know that I have kept my promise. I, the LORD, have spoken."
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